A Trio in the Making: Our Family is Growing.

WE ARE HAVING A BABY!

Wow, that is so exciting to finally share with everyone, if you have been pregnant before you will know how difficult that first trimester is when all you can think is ‘baby, baby, baby’ but can’t share with anyone yet.

Ok, so to some maybe this will come as a surprise giving that I have an almost 9-year-old and a 6-year-old, but it is something I have longed for, for some time.

I used to only want two children, a decision that I was firm on when my two were little. People would often ask me ‘oh do you think you will have more’. To which I would respond ‘NEVER’. I would get so mad when they would then say, ‘never say never’, thinking how dare you think you know my mind better than me…

I’m genuinely not trying to sound like Justin Bieber here, but the biggest lesson life has taught me so far is never say never.

I would say when Azalea (my youngest) turned three was when little thoughts about another child began to creep in. I would see babies pass and think ‘aww how cute’, but soon those feelings would leave my mind and I just thought oh well maybe this is normal, and it is just a feeling of broodiness that will pass… It is safe to say this emotion did not pass and it only grew stronger by the day.

On other occasions my mind would go back to thinking ‘oh god no my life is so easy now I don’t need another baby’, a very confusing thought process but after much time scouring the internet, I have come to realise this feeling is quite the phenomenon among mothers.

My husband and I sat in the sitting room one night (back in 2020), when I casually mentioned the idea of another child, I received a resounding no. Slowly that no became a yes, and then it became something he too truly wanted.

This blog is more of an ‘announcement’ post and more blogs will come to follow on our trying to conceive (TTC) journey, the two week wait, the yo-yo decision making on whether to have a third baby or not, and all things pregnancy and baby.

I would like to leave a special thank you here to my husband and my two sisters.

To Joao you have quite simply been my rock, you have helped me through this when I have felt as though I was drowning, and you have done everything and anything to bring a smile to my face when things felt impossible.

To Laura, for wanting this almost as much as I did. For talking about it for hours on end and being an ear to listen to and a shoulder to cry on whenever I needed it.

To Emma, for helping me believe in the power of manifestation, for without it I do not think this would have been possible. PS. I will give you that book back at some point.

I am so unbelievably excited for the journey ahead, and I can’t wait to take you all with me.

For now, I just want to leave you this video, and to let anyone who is currently TTC know that I am sending you baby dust, and to keep hope as I am certain that your happy ending is just around the corner.